Hello, my name is Diana and I wanted to share my story going through IVF that sadly failed. It was my first time and even though I had the help of my doctor and the nurses, it was a long, tiring and emotional rollercoaster. It was a lot of information that was very overwhelming at first and hard to keep up with, but I knew that there was nothing more significant in my life to have the opportunity to maybe become a mother at some point.
My journey started in Dec 2019 and finally, I was getting closer and closer to having my embryo transfer. At last I received a call that it was a go and my procedure would be done on March 12, 2020 at 12 pm, which was easily the happiest day of my life. Regardless of all the paper signing and money invested, knowing that there was a 50/50 chance, I had high hopes that it would work. I experienced a scare in between those impatient two weeks because my progesterone had decreased so my dosage was increased – painful by the way!
At last, the two long weeks of waiting to get my blood work were here and I was just waiting for the “call” that would change my life. The nurse called and said it was negative. I was in total shock, and it took me a moment to process because I couldn’t believe that all my hard work, effort and hope had gone out the window. I was frustrated, lost, and could not stop blaming myself. I wish I could’ve known what I had done wrong to have been able to change it right then and there. After giving myself some time to grieve and think things over, I am still hopeful because it is something my husband and I truly desire. We have decided to continue with our second try since we have two frozen embryos.
I know it is hard to stay optimistic but my trust in God is all I have.